Falling in love with my best friend. And it’s okay. Because he wants to be with me. I’m finally happy.
Do you know what it's like..
To scream endlessly inside of your head, until finally it bursts out of you like a double barrel shotgun? I can’t stop the screams. I’m in so much mental and physical pain, I don’t know how to get away from it. I’m leaving home for two weeks, I need to get away from everyone. Running from your problems solves nothing, I know, but I can’t handle any of this right now.
I’m so close to giving up. I’m at my breaking point. I have zero motivation these days. Please, give me something. Anything. I just need a break.
I feel numb.
As if I’m not even here. In this body, on this planet. And I don’t even care. I welcome this detachment. I feel nothing in this state, possibly like a ghost. This is where I belong.
I was looking to the sky when I knew I’d be swimming home. I cannot betray my kind. They are here, it’s my time.
I've given up.
The addiction won. I can’t stop the urges anymore. I hate knowing what this is doing to the people around me, but I’m not strong enough anymore.
Counting my clean days again..
Monday will be a week. So far, so good.
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All I feel is this cruel wanting.
Should I even bother counting my clean days anymore?
I almost broke..
I almost gave in to the addiction last night. The urge is constant in my mind, but somehow, I’m getting through it. I’m just so scared that I’ll give in, and that I’ll give in soon. I’m already scarred, why should I care??
I cry every single time I listen to this song....
I’ve gotten some very supportive messages, and I just want to thank everyone who sent me something. Your kindness is very much appreciated, thank you so much <3
I’ve been clean for a few months, and I’m having urges now. It’s scaring me. I don’t want to keep falling into relapses, but I don’t know how to stop. I just wish I had the will to stay clean and just live without thinking about it all the time. But I suppose that’s why we call it “addiction”, right?